The Importance of Confidence
I know I'm pretty. I know I'm beautiful. I know my body looks good. Trust me, I know. However, there was a time in my life where I didn't realize I was, and I would rather look for people to reassure me of my beauty, no matter what it would take. I guess you could say I had a thirst for compliments, and I would eat them up from whoever spat them out. Be it about my body, about my chubby cheeks, or my eyes, I would just get filled up with all these compliments but, somehow, they would pass through one ear, my brain would deny them, and be pushed out the other.
I was so in denial of my beauty because at the time, not many people would notice it, and it started to cause me to do weird things just to be noticed. I would maybe put on a little more make up, dress in really short things or wear flashy things, just really weird things just so I could get noticed and be reminded that I was "hot" or "gorgeous", not realizing those compliments were demoralizing me rather than making me feel beautiful, and that's why they couldn't stick in my head.
While I was looking for security and assurance in guys, I came across this certain guy, we'll call him Adam, that took a very particular interest in me. You see, Adam was this sweet guy in the beginning. Very nice, polite, loving, caring, funny, all that mushy stuff, and I, being a young naive princess, fell for Adam. After about 4 months of talking, Adam asked me to be his gf and I said cool. Lol. Dumb right? This is the importance of having a good self esteem and confidence in yourself. You won't THINK you need someone to assure you of your value. Anyway, after sometime, Adam became hostile towards me. He began demanding for things I could not give and making me do things that were unnecessarily outrageous, and I did them, because you see, Adam thought I was beautiful. No one had liked me like Adam did. He made me feel special when he wasn't being an imbecile. I had put my security in him rather than finding security in myself.
Some men love to take charge. That's just their primitive instinct, something in their nature. But sometimes, that "love of leading" turns into a love and passion for taking advantage. It becomes very easy for a man to take advantage of anyone they find vulnerable, anyone they find that can be easily pushed around, knowing the person can't do anything to fight back. They love to have power at their fingertips and make a lady beg, bring her to her knees, and see her be less than she is. And for some weird reason, that becomes a "turn on" to some men.
If there's one thing I would want someone to learn from this experience, I would want you to find security and confidence in yourself. I want you to realize how important you are that even if someone where to have the ability to take advantage of you, you wouldn't let them, because you know your worth and value. Even the bible says, in Proverbs 3:14, 15 "for she is more profitable than silver, and her gain is better than fine gold. She is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire compares with her." This might have been more directed to females, but I hope it resonates with the males as well. So, continue to go out into the world, explore, live and continue to question life and its mysteries, never ever question your worth and lose your confidence.
I was so in denial of my beauty because at the time, not many people would notice it, and it started to cause me to do weird things just to be noticed. I would maybe put on a little more make up, dress in really short things or wear flashy things, just really weird things just so I could get noticed and be reminded that I was "hot" or "gorgeous", not realizing those compliments were demoralizing me rather than making me feel beautiful, and that's why they couldn't stick in my head.
While I was looking for security and assurance in guys, I came across this certain guy, we'll call him Adam, that took a very particular interest in me. You see, Adam was this sweet guy in the beginning. Very nice, polite, loving, caring, funny, all that mushy stuff, and I, being a young naive princess, fell for Adam. After about 4 months of talking, Adam asked me to be his gf and I said cool. Lol. Dumb right? This is the importance of having a good self esteem and confidence in yourself. You won't THINK you need someone to assure you of your value. Anyway, after sometime, Adam became hostile towards me. He began demanding for things I could not give and making me do things that were unnecessarily outrageous, and I did them, because you see, Adam thought I was beautiful. No one had liked me like Adam did. He made me feel special when he wasn't being an imbecile. I had put my security in him rather than finding security in myself.
Some men love to take charge. That's just their primitive instinct, something in their nature. But sometimes, that "love of leading" turns into a love and passion for taking advantage. It becomes very easy for a man to take advantage of anyone they find vulnerable, anyone they find that can be easily pushed around, knowing the person can't do anything to fight back. They love to have power at their fingertips and make a lady beg, bring her to her knees, and see her be less than she is. And for some weird reason, that becomes a "turn on" to some men.
If there's one thing I would want someone to learn from this experience, I would want you to find security and confidence in yourself. I want you to realize how important you are that even if someone where to have the ability to take advantage of you, you wouldn't let them, because you know your worth and value. Even the bible says, in Proverbs 3:14, 15 "for she is more profitable than silver, and her gain is better than fine gold. She is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire compares with her." This might have been more directed to females, but I hope it resonates with the males as well. So, continue to go out into the world, explore, live and continue to question life and its mysteries, never ever question your worth and lose your confidence.
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