A Love Letter From Me to Me

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Dear Makani,

I don’t think I have the words to describe how special you are, how amazing you are, how beautiful you are. 


I’ve seen you grow, change, blossom, face the rain alone, face storms alone, and still bloom beautifully through every storm. 


I’ve seen you at your worse, there’s been times I have loved you far less than I should have because I didn’t think you deserved to be loved fully for what you had done to people, for the pain you caused people, I thought putting you through grimy situations was your karma, I realized I was just harming you, hurting you, scarring you for life, disrespecting you, and I have never been more sorry, more genuinely and truly sorry for all I have put you through. 


I have seen you change overtime, allow God to develop your heart, allow God to heal your heart, to change you, I enjoy watching you love people the way God loves you, giving them grace, giving them comfort, befriending them, just the way God befriended you. 


I love the way your personality lights up the room, the way you laugh loudly, the way you cry at everything, the way you feel so deeply. 


I love you for you, I love you in all stages, I love you when you don’t love yourself. I will always love you. I love your face, your body, the appearance you struggled soo hard to accept. 


I love seeing you grow into an undeniable confidence. I’m so sorry for the way I treated you when things weren’t going the best, I should have been better, thank you for acknowledging that I’m doing better and I will keep proving and reassuring you that I will always try and do better for you. 


I am so grateful to God for loving you when I couldn’t love you properly, for being there and filling in the gaps I couldn’t fill in. I’m so happy God made you whole. I know things aren’t perfect yet, but I’m grateful I can spend a lifetime and eternity with you, continuously watching you grow and elevate into the woman God knows He made you to be. 


I love you and I am so in love with you.


Yours Sincerely and Truly,

Makani Chiyabi


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